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Name: Stephanie
Location: Indiana
Birthday: 3/8/1987
Interests: God, color guard, Ted Dekker, Frank Peretti, Ender's Game.....
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| I think it's a fair guess that most of you know by now, that David and I broke up. I broke up with him. It was hard, and I didn't want to do it, but I thought, and still think so now, that is was a needed thing to do. So yeah. I still love him, but I think at this point it's more of a love I feel for a freind or a brother, not really a boyfriend. So yeah, he deserves a woman that is just as amazing as he is, and I'm not that woman.
Also this week, I got the 24-hour flu. Only mine lasted for about 36 hours. I'm still feeling the after effects, and I was sick on Monday. So yeah, that threw an interesting twist on everything. This week started out really sucky, but tonight's House Church, so hopefully that will help. Well, later everyone! | | |
| I'm really starting to understand the concept of "sacrifice of praise". That phrase is never one I've given much thought before, but after talking to Pastor Jerry the other night, I've been thinking about it a lot.
As most of you know, my mood has not been great lately. Yeah, I've had bad days before, but when it was time for worship, I've never had a problem giving God His due, or at least part of it. Not so much the case now. Praising and worshiping God has been the last thing i've wanted to do. I asked Jerry about it and he said, yes, that is very normal, and that's why you find that phrase so much in Psalms. David, Solomon, and all the other authors of the Psalms went through the exact same thing. But they praised God anyway, not because they felt like it, but because he was worthy. I need to make my attitude more like that. I need to praise and worship God not because I'm in the mood to, or because I feel like it, but because He's worthy of the little praise I can give Him.
That's all for now, maybe more thoughts on worship and God later on!
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| So this weekend was the much anticipated and at the same time very much dreaded ski trip. I thought there was going to be a lot of drama surrounded Brandon and Joel, but there wasn't. I didn't know what would happen with skiing, but what did happen I never would have thought to expect. And overall this weekend was nothing I had anticipated.
So my brush with death, we went skiing on Saturday, the high was 11 degrees, and later I found out that the wind chill was 17 below zero. It was cloudy and snowing all day, great day for skiiing right!! ...or not... So after spending all day on the bunny hill (beginners hill) I want to go on a big one before we leave, so I meet up with the rest of the group and Joel and Ben agree to go out one more time before we finish (everyone else was done and ready to leave). So, as soon as Joel says "Yeah, lets go" or something like that, my adrenaline starts pumping. I'm hyperventalating by the time I get my skis on and by the time I get to the hill I almost have a panic attack, but Ben talks to me and I'm able to relax enough to go down. I go down the hill first, then Joel is close behind me, and Ben waits so he's farther behind.
At first I'm doing fine, then towards the end I start to pick up speed. I try to stop, but what can I say? I can't. I look ahead to try to figure out what to do. Right in front of me, not even 100 feet, there's the ski lift mechanism. The thingy that rotates the cables that keeps the ski lift going. The machine was in a pit about 5-6 feet deep, with a wooden fence around it. My thought was, "I'm going to run into that...", yeah, didn't happen. I went THROUGH the fence. Yeah, you heard me right, I went through the fence. I don't really remember what happened. All I remember is seeing that fence in front of me and thinking, "I need to stop... CRAP". I try to stop by turning my skiis, and that doesn't work out too well. I hear a loud snap and the next thing I know, I'm lying on my back looking up and hearing people yelling SKI PATROL!!!! SKI PATROL!!!!
Three Ski Patrol are already in the pit with me, and they're still yelling for more. I thought my skiis had snapped in half, and I had no idea where Joel and Ben where, and then I heard Ben scream at the top of his lungs "HEY SKI PATROL!!!!!!!!!!" I told myself I had to stay calm, so I did, even though I was trembling all over. The Ski patrol asked me where it hurt and I told them my back and my sholder. They took me to the main office/clinic where they examined me, and were amazed (as was I) that I didn't have any broken bones, or serious injury, just a few bruises here and there.
Later on Ben told me that when he saw me hit that fence, he thought it was my face that snapped the board that that I was either dead, or had several broken bones. One of those "Life smacks you in the face moments", and when he saw me in the pit, he was amazed that I wasn't hurt more than I was. I don't know, but I think Joel was thinking the same thing. I look back and I'm amazed that I did come out of that pit with only a sore sholder, which is still hurting, I may end up going to the ER, or at least the clinic here on campus if it's not better in a few days. It's also suprising that my back doesn't hurt more than it does. It's been hurting since this summer, and I landed flat on my back, really hard, but it doesn't hurt that much. About the same as before, maybe a LITTLE worse, but not bad. So yeah, I remember yelling out loud "God help me!" right before I "blacked out", so, yeah, I think we have a bona fide miracle here. I don't remember what happened right before the fall, or the fall itself, but I don't think I blacked out, I think I just braced myself really hard. So yeah, I had a brush with death, and walked away with little more than a scratch. Simply a miracle, God 100%.
So yeah, I guess there was a lot of drama that happened this weekend that I didn't pick up on, I don't know what I think about a freind that I used to think very highly of, but overall, it was a good weekend. Wouldn't change a thing about it, even going down the big hill and falling like that! | | |
| So, it's official! It's legal! It's set in stone! No more dorms next year! I'll be living with Charisse, Misti, and maybe Dyani in WINDERMERE!!!!!!! This makes me *uber* (Happy Jay?) happy! It also brings up quite a little delimma though.
So now, the struggle, Drum Corps, or not Drum Corps? I have a job, but even with the money I make, there's no way I'd be able to pay for both Corps and the apartment. If I stay home and work at the mall, or something, I can save money for the apartment. Or even if I go to LT over the summer, I can work, maybe come home for Colber and Dan's wedding. I don't know I'm thrilled about the apartment, but it also presents some tough questions. Suggestions anyone?
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